It’s been a funny old month. Busy with work, family etc, but I should be buzzing creatively. However, I very nearly decided to throw my brushes away and have repeatedly asked myself why I ever thought I could paint.
Why? Well, for the silly reason that a gallery has asked me to put some paintings together. I am terrified. Instead of relishing the challenge, I sit and worry that they will hate anything I do, that I won’t be able to produce anything worth showing, that in fact I will never paint another picture worth looking at twice in my life… And the more I worry, the worse it gets.
What a stupid cycle of silliness! It’s like playing tennis well and then double faulting in every competitive match you play (I speak from experience). Logically, I know they wouldn’t ask me if they didn’t like my paintings, but the little voice in my brain keeps telling me I am going to fail. So much of doing something well is in the head, isn’t it?
So I have given myself a jolly good talking to. Told myself not to try to paint to please any one but me, and not to try to paint like anyone else. I hope it is starting to come back.
What do you do, when it all goes wrong?? Please share your top tips for remaining positive and creative!